Updated: Aug 2
This is my list of 60 PTSD symptoms I lived with for over 20 years, but God healed me completely in one radical encounter. If he did it for me, he can do it for you.
I tried everything to heal. I searched for answers and relief to this long list of trauma symptoms everywhere, but nothing was able to remove the mountain of pain that rested upon me. Until I gave my life to Jesus and everything changed. Instead of trying to "be strong and carry on" as the world told me to do, I crumbled up into a little ball and cried out to God, "HELP!" Many times I beat my chest and cried furious tears of shame and despair screaming, "Jesus, fix my life!" And He did.
I am completely healed from PTSD. I am 100% free from:
eating disorder / food addiction
inability to feel safe in public
nightmares & flashbacks
massive mood swings
sleep disorders / sleep phobia
forgetting how to smile
controlled / tense facial expressions
discomfort sitting down
dissociation / leaving my body
sabotaging good relationships
feeling like I'm "out of control"
feeling like I'm "not normal"
hyper-awareness of my body and limbs
extreme sensitivity (emotional and physical)
rage / anger outbursts / violence
fits of uncontrolled crying
stolen innocence / stolen virginity
fertility + hormonal issues
strong dislike of men
gender confusion / same sex tendencies
fear of abandonment
extreme loneliness / emptiness / despair
feeling like I'm suffocating or drowning
not being "at home" or "at ease" in my body
reckless risk taking that endangers my life or health
fear of confinement and small spaces / feeling like I'm being confined
apathy / numbness
actual physical injury from being abused (specifically back issues, misalignments, pain, etc.)
feeling "gross" or "slimy" inside
casuality with sex
unforgiveness / hardness of heart / bitterness / resentment
ongoing fear of death or sensing impending doom
body weight issues (can't put on or lose weight)
inability to think or plan long term
inability to handle surprise or spontaneity well / trouble with moment to moment transitions
sexual dysfunction / feeling broken sexually
aversion to touch or intimacy
trust issues / inability to soften guard even when I want to
hormonal issues / period problems / issues with reproductive organs / acne
trouble with boundaries (setting my own and respecting others')
feeling like I don't have a voice
throat problems / vocal issues
obsessive control issues
physical ticks, uncontrolled movements that feel like I have to do them (ie: scratching, tapping, adjusting, cracking, moving around, etc.)
I didn't get healed because I earned it. I got healed because I gave God permission to come into my being and move things around. His spirit is part of my spirit now and it removed all the darkness, turmoil, and mess from my abuse.
If God could heal me, he can heal you. No matter what you’ve gone through or what you might still be facing today, God‘s power is enough to change the tides of your trauma into complete serenity so you're no longer tormented by waves of pain.
The only thing you have to do is cry out to Him. You actually have to raise your voice and speak to God out loud because the spiritual realm works through verbal agreements. Sure, God knows your thoughts, but unless you agree to let him into your process he's not going to override your free will. So do it! Invite him in like I did and everything will change. "Jesus, I give you my life."